"What you are seeking, is seeking you"

A poet once said:

"What  you are seeking, is seeking you".

This has proven to be real and true in my life.
When I have my eyes open to see misbehaved, needy children that is exactly how my children behave. When I seek to see happy, well mannered, kind to each other children; then my kids play the part and we have a wonderful day together.
I believe we are surrounded by energy and the energy that goes out from us attracts the same vibration, the same light or darkness, the same positiveness or negativeness, generosity or selfishness, abundance or lack...
Today I talked to my Father for a long time (my Father in Heaven). I told Him that I'm tired of feeling blue and depressed. I want the post-partum depression to be lifted, to leave me, to disappear. I want to go back to being the ol' Ninhas, my old self. The one that laughs, smiles, loves, jumps, is passionate about virtually everything, moves her body, hugs others, plays with her children, etc.
It almost feels like I've seen life in the past with exciting and vibrating colors, and smells, and that now not only are the colors and smells not vibrant but I'm actually living a black and white life.
I'm ready for FULL COLOR EXPERIENCES :)
Father, help me. Be with me. Show me the way. And I promise I'll do my best to have the courage to take all the steps in the right direction.

Love to all,
Sofia