"What one can be, one must be."

"What one can be, one must be."

- Abraham Maslow

Doing well

Jay is still gone... the children are more emotional as the days go by... they miss their Papa. He'll be home in a few days.
Even though I am really really tired our days have gone by without stress and without too many complications :) I'm thankful that I don't feel alone. I know that Father is helping me, and I'm blessed with a few good friends = human angels.
Today I ate really healthy stuff and I feel happy and proud of myself.
I juiced 3 large carrots, a head of celery, 2 apples and some lemon. I made my own almond milk and drank it with some cocoa (my version of super duper healthy hot chocolate!!!!) - D E L I C I O U S
I also made a 'raw dessert' with the almond pulp left from making almond milk: almond pulp, a little agave, and one banana and 3 dates blended with a little water as a syrup on top of it :)
Jessica came over to invite us to go to the park with her kids - I wonder if she read this one article about what things you should say to someone who suffers from depression (I posted it on FB!!!) This article mentions that although we (sufferers of depression) know that sunshine and a nice walk would be beneficial we just won't do it, and that those who care about us should invite us to go to the park :) she's a good friend and she's invited me to the park a bunch of times :)
After the park we went over to her house for dinner, and Gabi picked a big bouquet of Lavender flowers from our front yard to take and give to her.

I'm feeling well.
Thank you Father.

Crying during Mediation

This morning, after taking Gabi and Tiago to school, I felt drawn to meditate. I have recorded on my computer a simple 8 minute long meditation to which I have added another8 minutes of my own meditation script - my own affirmations, recorded with my voice!
I closed my eyes and started taking deep breaths, my eyes closed, my feet supported by the floor and my fingers in 'meditation pose'

Then a beautiful thing happened - I started crying... at first it was just tear running down my cheeks, it then turned into a stronger, more sobbing like cry. There were all these emotions bottled up inside of me and I was giving them the opportunity to come out, to be felt, heard, dealt with. It's not that I was feeling sad, I'm not even sure if I can put a name/tag on the emotions that were coming out... it wasn't unpleasant, or hard. It was actually so freeing. At the moment I feel like I'm a few pounds lighter (emotional pounds :)
During my meditation I envisioned myself in a field of pure, good, warm white light. My whole body had that light too. Then I saw my Savior. We hugged... I kept giving Him more and more hugs, and He was OK with it and just hugged me back. We smiled, talked, and just sat on this green field with the sun warming our bodies. During my meditation whenever I felt like it I just hugged Him again. I had feelings of happiness and peace, yet tears kept rolling down my cheeks (and I did nothing to prevent them from rolling down my face, I felt safe and new it was ok to let all that emotion come out and express itself).

 

Some of the affirmation in my meditation are:

I trust. I am safe.

I forgive myself. I love and accept my body. I love and accept my life.

I have power. Power to create my ideal healthy body and my ideal happy life.

I am worthy. I am deserving and worthy of my ideal body and my ideal life.

I am ridiculously Happy.

I radiate love.

It was so, so good to visualise myself next to my Savior. He was there with me. He had all the time in the world to just sit with me, He let me hug Him over and over again. I felt so much love from Him and I expressed so much gratitude to Him.

Wow, what a special meditation time this morning. I will definitely keep making the time to meditate, to allow emotions and feelings to express themselves, and to plant seeds of positive thinking in my brain. Seeds of love, trust, peace, and happiness.

Love always,

Sofia

Great day - healthy life happy life!

Jay has been away on a work trip for over a week and he won't be back for another week. It's hard not having him home, but everything has gone well so far... well, actually a BUNCH of stuff has happened but I made the goal to not complain, and to not tell Jay about all the things that aren't going so well and now I don't remember them anymore - weird but cool!
I really wanted to eat more raw fruits and veggies while Jay was away and I've been doing great at that. Most days I've eaten healthy fruits and veggies till dinner and then I eat a cooked dinner (there have been a few days when I was doing super great and then at night I ate ice cream!!!!! :(  but oh well....)
Today I ate only raw foods and I feel so happy. I don't feel deprived at all.
I went to Costco and bought  lots of DELICIOUS black grapes, persimons (which are still a bit green but will hopefully ripen and taste just like the ones my mom used to buy for our family back in Portugal), lots of tomatoes, some champagne mangoes (they don't look very good, but I'm hoping that these too will ripen and be super sweet), big avocados, and lots of peaches!!!!!!!
So today I had a huge smoothie (bananas, dried fruit, spinach, water and maca) as a late breakfast, then around 2:30pm, for lunch, I had the juice of lots of celery, carrots, and 2 apples. For dinner I had a peach, and raw soup - half avocado, and half tomato cut into small pieces, and then I blended a little garlic, water, spinach, celery and half tomato!!!!! yum, yum, it was SOOOOOOOOO good. I added a little bit of tampenade (because I thought I would want a saltier taste but it wasn't even necessary) and a little bit of mushrooms.
Oh, I also ate grapes while preparing my dinner ;) and ate a handful of wallnuts earlier on.
I did FHE with the kids, they wanted to sing more and read more books and i was really patient with them. Everything went well.
Now I need to go sleep!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Beijinhos

PS- tomorrow I want to write a list of my "Pain and Pleasure" related to eating a healthier diet - a raw diet - fruits and veggies. I want to list all the things that are hurting me if I keep giving in to my food addictions, and a list of all the blessings I can attain as I eat raw.

IMPORTANT - I've expressed my gratitude to Heavenly Father - He helped me stay on course today. He's the best! I love Him.