"What one can be, one must be."

"What one can be, one must be."

- Abraham Maslow

Doing well

Jay is still gone... the children are more emotional as the days go by... they miss their Papa. He'll be home in a few days.
Even though I am really really tired our days have gone by without stress and without too many complications :) I'm thankful that I don't feel alone. I know that Father is helping me, and I'm blessed with a few good friends = human angels.
Today I ate really healthy stuff and I feel happy and proud of myself.
I juiced 3 large carrots, a head of celery, 2 apples and some lemon. I made my own almond milk and drank it with some cocoa (my version of super duper healthy hot chocolate!!!!) - D E L I C I O U S
I also made a 'raw dessert' with the almond pulp left from making almond milk: almond pulp, a little agave, and one banana and 3 dates blended with a little water as a syrup on top of it :)
Jessica came over to invite us to go to the park with her kids - I wonder if she read this one article about what things you should say to someone who suffers from depression (I posted it on FB!!!) This article mentions that although we (sufferers of depression) know that sunshine and a nice walk would be beneficial we just won't do it, and that those who care about us should invite us to go to the park :) she's a good friend and she's invited me to the park a bunch of times :)
After the park we went over to her house for dinner, and Gabi picked a big bouquet of Lavender flowers from our front yard to take and give to her.

I'm feeling well.
Thank you Father.

Crying during Mediation

This morning, after taking Gabi and Tiago to school, I felt drawn to meditate. I have recorded on my computer a simple 8 minute long meditation to which I have added another8 minutes of my own meditation script - my own affirmations, recorded with my voice!
I closed my eyes and started taking deep breaths, my eyes closed, my feet supported by the floor and my fingers in 'meditation pose'

Then a beautiful thing happened - I started crying... at first it was just tear running down my cheeks, it then turned into a stronger, more sobbing like cry. There were all these emotions bottled up inside of me and I was giving them the opportunity to come out, to be felt, heard, dealt with. It's not that I was feeling sad, I'm not even sure if I can put a name/tag on the emotions that were coming out... it wasn't unpleasant, or hard. It was actually so freeing. At the moment I feel like I'm a few pounds lighter (emotional pounds :)
During my meditation I envisioned myself in a field of pure, good, warm white light. My whole body had that light too. Then I saw my Savior. We hugged... I kept giving Him more and more hugs, and He was OK with it and just hugged me back. We smiled, talked, and just sat on this green field with the sun warming our bodies. During my meditation whenever I felt like it I just hugged Him again. I had feelings of happiness and peace, yet tears kept rolling down my cheeks (and I did nothing to prevent them from rolling down my face, I felt safe and new it was ok to let all that emotion come out and express itself).

 

Some of the affirmation in my meditation are:

I trust. I am safe.

I forgive myself. I love and accept my body. I love and accept my life.

I have power. Power to create my ideal healthy body and my ideal happy life.

I am worthy. I am deserving and worthy of my ideal body and my ideal life.

I am ridiculously Happy.

I radiate love.

It was so, so good to visualise myself next to my Savior. He was there with me. He had all the time in the world to just sit with me, He let me hug Him over and over again. I felt so much love from Him and I expressed so much gratitude to Him.

Wow, what a special meditation time this morning. I will definitely keep making the time to meditate, to allow emotions and feelings to express themselves, and to plant seeds of positive thinking in my brain. Seeds of love, trust, peace, and happiness.

Love always,

Sofia

Great day - healthy life happy life!

Jay has been away on a work trip for over a week and he won't be back for another week. It's hard not having him home, but everything has gone well so far... well, actually a BUNCH of stuff has happened but I made the goal to not complain, and to not tell Jay about all the things that aren't going so well and now I don't remember them anymore - weird but cool!
I really wanted to eat more raw fruits and veggies while Jay was away and I've been doing great at that. Most days I've eaten healthy fruits and veggies till dinner and then I eat a cooked dinner (there have been a few days when I was doing super great and then at night I ate ice cream!!!!! :(  but oh well....)
Today I ate only raw foods and I feel so happy. I don't feel deprived at all.
I went to Costco and bought  lots of DELICIOUS black grapes, persimons (which are still a bit green but will hopefully ripen and taste just like the ones my mom used to buy for our family back in Portugal), lots of tomatoes, some champagne mangoes (they don't look very good, but I'm hoping that these too will ripen and be super sweet), big avocados, and lots of peaches!!!!!!!
So today I had a huge smoothie (bananas, dried fruit, spinach, water and maca) as a late breakfast, then around 2:30pm, for lunch, I had the juice of lots of celery, carrots, and 2 apples. For dinner I had a peach, and raw soup - half avocado, and half tomato cut into small pieces, and then I blended a little garlic, water, spinach, celery and half tomato!!!!! yum, yum, it was SOOOOOOOOO good. I added a little bit of tampenade (because I thought I would want a saltier taste but it wasn't even necessary) and a little bit of mushrooms.
Oh, I also ate grapes while preparing my dinner ;) and ate a handful of wallnuts earlier on.
I did FHE with the kids, they wanted to sing more and read more books and i was really patient with them. Everything went well.
Now I need to go sleep!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Beijinhos

PS- tomorrow I want to write a list of my "Pain and Pleasure" related to eating a healthier diet - a raw diet - fruits and veggies. I want to list all the things that are hurting me if I keep giving in to my food addictions, and a list of all the blessings I can attain as I eat raw.

IMPORTANT - I've expressed my gratitude to Heavenly Father - He helped me stay on course today. He's the best! I love Him.

"What you are seeking, is seeking you"

A poet once said:

"What  you are seeking, is seeking you".

This has proven to be real and true in my life.
When I have my eyes open to see misbehaved, needy children that is exactly how my children behave. When I seek to see happy, well mannered, kind to each other children; then my kids play the part and we have a wonderful day together.
I believe we are surrounded by energy and the energy that goes out from us attracts the same vibration, the same light or darkness, the same positiveness or negativeness, generosity or selfishness, abundance or lack...
Today I talked to my Father for a long time (my Father in Heaven). I told Him that I'm tired of feeling blue and depressed. I want the post-partum depression to be lifted, to leave me, to disappear. I want to go back to being the ol' Ninhas, my old self. The one that laughs, smiles, loves, jumps, is passionate about virtually everything, moves her body, hugs others, plays with her children, etc.
It almost feels like I've seen life in the past with exciting and vibrating colors, and smells, and that now not only are the colors and smells not vibrant but I'm actually living a black and white life.
I'm ready for FULL COLOR EXPERIENCES :)
Father, help me. Be with me. Show me the way. And I promise I'll do my best to have the courage to take all the steps in the right direction.

Love to all,
Sofia

Marie Forleo - a great gal

So many times I have so many different things, thoughts, emotions, ideas, projects, dreams, and goals going through my head that it's hard to express it, put it in words or try to explain it to others. Not just that, but my 'fear' or being judged harshly or criticized by other (who cannot see what's in my heart) has always kind of paralyzed me.
I know I have a mission in this life. I know it involves more than just motherhood. I know it's something bright, fun, inspiring and beautiful. I need to move forward and to take the steps that I'm supposed and meant to take. And instead of thinking: "I need to be brave"; I'll say: "I am brave, and I have all I need to get going with my mission.
Marie Forleo is a really cool lady that inspires LOTS of people, and in one interview she mentioned the following:

What are your top three career advice tips?
1. Outrageous success comes from thinking different, being different and having the confidence to always do what feels right in your heart.
2. Stay on your hustle & have patience. Focus on long-term success not a short-term ego trip.
3. Remember that nothing has meaning except for the meaning you give to it. Why not interpret everything as a gift?


Life is wonderful. I love and I am loved.

Ciao
Sofia

Mosiah 4:27 And see that all these things are done in wisdom and order; for it is not requisite that a man should run faster than he has strength. And again, it is expedient that he should be diligent, that thereby he might win the prize; therefore, all things must be done in order.

"I have a new project" she wrote, 'one chapter a day from each of the standard works. I have been on it for 4 days and am only 3 days behind. Better to have tried and failed than never to have tried." - Sis. Hinckley (Pres. Gordon B. Hinckley's wife)
This is my attitude toward life now a days. More often than not we're just too hard on ourselves.

So, I really meant to write down a list of things I'm thankful for every day and to write about my daily meditation... then I went on vacation, wasn't around a computer... and didn't do it (I kept up with meditation). For a little bit I felt like a looser for not being able to keep my commitment.... and then... I disregarded those feelings and told myself: It's fine, it's totally OK! Who cares anyway? I am grateful and I have been giving my "gratitude list" to my Father in Heaven daily - THAT's what counts.
Life is great! 



"Age is no longer the primary factor that determines where you are on the map.
Life is now less about how old you are and more about when you decide to live... Regardless of your age or station in life, it all comes down to one simple truth:
you just have to start."

What is your dream?

What is my dream?

How will I achieve it?

The first question may be difficult to answer. It seems like I have many dreams. Yet, there must be one that stands out above all others...one that inspires me, energizes me, and empowers me to do everything I can to achieve it.

The second question is the reason most people never realize their dreams. They have no strategy in place for attaining it, no knowledge of what is needed and must be sometimes sacrificed to have the dream come true.

I need to make a list, or at least write down an idea of what my dream is. If I can't identify it then it'll never come true right? I won't even know what it is I'm working on... There's a saying... somewhat like: a boat without a destination will never... wait, it's this: “Without goals, and plans to reach them, you are like a ship that has set sail with no destination.”, A sailor without a destination cannot hope for a favorable wind., and “No Wind Blows in Favor of a Ship Without Direction,”
 
I'm certain that everyone else has this desire too. They have a dream and want it to come true.  I'm sure you hope it will. But will you actually do it? What odds would you give yourself? One in five? One in a hundred? One in a million? How can you tell whether your chances are good or whether your dream will always remain exactly that—a dream?

Most people have no idea how to achieve their dreams. What they possess is a vague notion that there is something they would like to do someday or someone they would like to become. But they don't know how to get from here to there.
I'm trying to have this become clearer to me. I need Father's help in doing so.
I know that I want to be happy, and healthy. And I would love to help others feel truly happy and healthy too.
We'll see. I have an idea... now it's about taking the steps to materialize that idea... We'll see.
Life is wonderful. God is wonderful to me.

40 day CHALLENGE: gratitude & meditation. Day 1

I read today that for real spiritual change to happen you need to keep a new habit for 40 days... and something related to the fact that Jesus fasted for 40 days.
So, I'm going to give it a try :) 
We'll see if I keep up with it or if this will be another one of those 'goals' of mine where I start on fire, and 3 to 5 days later forget all about it!?!?!
Gratitude list:
-I'm so thankful that I now have 3 children. There was a time when I thought that I could never handle 3; the thought of having 3 scared me - it meant more kids than grown-ups in the house, it also meant another year or more of very little sleeping, of trying to figure out the needs of a human being that can't use words to express himself (Tiago and Gabi are at least able to tell me their basic needs now), and the list goes on - but what I'm trying to accomplish here is listing the GOOD STUFF right? Anyway, Lucas is an Angel, a blessing, a unique opportunity for me to grow. He gives me so much more than he takes. And although it has been a sacrifice (of my emotional well being, sleep, body, time, money, etc) it's been so worthwhile, so magical and so GOOOOOOOD.
-I'm thankful for good friends- the type that really care, that make me feel comfortable with showing my imperfections/doubts/fears/insecurities/shortcomings. I 'KNOW' so many people, and believe I'm loved by many, but I don't have a whole lot of friends that I can really just call 2 or 3 times a year and talk for hours on the phone as if we had stayed in touch every single day. Some of the good friends I am thankful for at this moment are Jay, Erin, Danelle, Vania, Mae, Pai.
-I'm so grateful for the Lords kindness and for the miracles that keep happening in our lives; namely the divine guidance in finding our new home. The location, the size, the price, the backyard, the layout of the house, the timing... everything is perfect, a complete miracle/blessing from my Kind Father who loves me. Not that my life is perfect and free from pain or worry; but sometimes the Lord is so kind to me that I actually have a hard time believing in what is happening. He is so good!
- I'm thankful for Mae e Pai. There were times, when I was growing up that I asked Father why I had to have been born to these parents. I didn't understand them and it seemed like they didn't understand me. But oh how that has changed. They are not perfect, yet they are perfect for me. I am thankful that I get to talk to them almost daily through skype. they are my parents and they are my friends.
-I'm thankful that Jay knows about my weaknesses and still loves me. And that we have the type of relationship where we don't use each-other's faults to...
-I'm thankful for the gift of hearing - I LOOOOOOOVE hearing the girly, sweet voice of Gabi, the baby boy laughter of Lucas, and the little boy screams of Tiago. I love listening to calm music and to the birds outside my bathroom window every single morning. Jay sees patients every day that have some type of hearing loss. I will be thankful for my hearing for as long as I hear :)
- I am so thankful for my Maesinha's sense of humor. I'll tell her something simple that happened in my day and she'll just laugh, and laugh... it makes me smile when I hear her laugh. I pray that Father will soon bless me with the same type of sense of humor that my Mother has.

I think that's all for today. Before going to bed I want to meditate for a little while, look at my vision board and say some positive affirmations.
Life is good!

Bruises!!!!

 AromaTouch; The Circulation Oil 

“I’m skeptical,” said a mom at a class in Canada. Suddenly, a blood curdling scream echoes from the back room. Her boy, who was playing had gotten his foot caught in the hide-a-bed sofa. The result was a black-and-blue foot with swelling coming on fast and a slight abrasion and indentation to the skin. The sight, aided by the sound of a boy in trauma, had everyone scrambling and questioning for a solution. “Let’s use AromaTouch,” I said. I had mom take her hand and massage the oil into his foot. The boy stopped crying instantly and within seconds we all watched as the discoloration faded before our eyes. “Did you see that!” she yelled. I added Frankincense to aide with the inflammation and Lavender to calm the child and the skin. Within 15 minutes, the boy was running around the house as if nothing had happened. There were no visible signs of the accident on his foot. At that moment, another mom was converted to the power of essential oils and another Healer was Empowered in another Home.

(taken directly from Edge Team newsletter)